07.09.2026

There is a silver lining in everything. Why is it called a silver lining? I wonder what was lined with silver..

I have to be grateful for the issues (uniqueness) of my brain because if it was any other way I would not be here today making and creating things like my life depends on it. I think this is also a very privileged thing to be thinking

If I didn’t always have thoughts racing through my head I don’t think I could have anywhere close to the same number of ideas as I have. I don’t understand how people do it otherwise!

07.08.2026

This last week has been tooo damn crazyy. I’ve been busy doing curatorial work for my honorarium, which has been fun but it’s super time consuming. I think collectively within the last week I’ve spent 40 hours or more preparing for and working on the art install. I think it’s really fulfilling though; I’ve learned so many art preparator skins and I know this will look great on my resume too.

I had my multivitamins again today and I feel so alive despite any and all shortcomings

I have a lot of thoughts throughout the day that I should be adding here but I keep forgetting them!! I’m going to start a note on my phone with anything worthwhile that I think of.

07.03.2026

Humans need to think metaphysically to survive. I think that’s part of what contributed to our ability to have consciousness. We wouldn’t have a part of our brain committed to it if it didn’t help us survive. Maybe it’s intended to force us to build community? If we have built empires throughout the ages based around these metaphysical beliefs, which could have been biologically induced, then are we really that intelligent of a species? Or did consciousness begin when people started becoming self-aware of these ideas.

My vitamin gummies motivate me to get out of bed in the morning <3